addictions

addiction : the condition of being addicted to a habit

addict : to give oneself up to some strong habit; an ardent supporter, devotee

i have a problem. and unfortunately my four year old son painfully opened my eyes with his own "intervention". the conversation took place several days ago in the kitchen. isaiah came around the corner, and witnessed my indulgence and felt the need to say something (although he always feels the need to say something about everything).

isaiah : "mom, may i have a cookie?"

alana: "no"

isaiah: "why, mom"

alana: "because there are none left"

isaiah: "mom did you eat the last one?"

alana: "yes"

isaiah: "MOM!! you always eat the last cookie! you always eat all the cookies!! bryn's mom doesn't eat all the cookies! why can't you be more like bryn's mom!!?

alana: hangs head in shame

"hello my name is alana, and i am addicted to cookies."

the first step is admitting it right? i don't know what's gotten into me. i love all cookies and i want to eat them. um.. not just girl scout cookies as i have talked about before. i'm talking all cookies. preferably homemade, that i freeze to preserve the freshness; chocolate chip, oatmeal raisin, ohh, and those peanut butter one's with the hershey kiss in the center, yum-my, store bought is fine, name brand or generic , it doesn't matter.

it needs to stop.

i need to be stopped.

look away... i am ashamed.

i am a monster...... a cookie monster.

so what am i going to do about it you say? i don't know. i guess it's not all the time. only sometimes. i can just eat one, and be done. little children exaggerate downfalls all the time. i'm in control.