brutal

so the last two weeks were absolutely brutal. two kids in the hospital. lincoln was in the hospital for 6 days with pneumonia, during that time rylan was at home sick with bronchialitus and refusing to take a bottle. i was completely torn between my two babies. i didn't want to leave lincoln, but i had to be home with rylan. jon pulled night time duty with lincoln. i would come home to my hungry sick baby, wake up at 5am and get to jon so he could go to work. we finally came home on a friday and was back in the hospital with rylan on sunday in the middle of the night when we woke up screaming and struggling to breathe. very scary. he had pneumonia and RSV, but recovered quickly and i was able to bring him home that wednesday. it was almost easier to be just at the hospital with rylan, knowing lincoln was better and having fun with the flood kids. still, what a mess.
but we made it. we were more than exhausted. but the kids are all better. and all is well. when we didn't think we could do another day, we did. the Lord was our strength and we persevered. i do not know how we would of ever made it without family and friends. especially my parents who stayed at my house and my dad for taking time off of work. i am so blessed. thank you to everyone who watched my kids, especially those who came at 6am so jon could go to work; thank you for all the meals, all of the groceries, phone calls, hospital visits, and prayers!! we felt very loved and taken care of. and thank you thank you, to my dear friend beth who washed my laundry, cleaned my house, loved on my children, and is now suffering with herself and her family being ill (probably something they caught at our house, sorry bout that).
and you know the whole time i was on that fifth floor of the hospital and would walk past the PICU, and knew there was terminally ill children on that floor, i just kept thanking the Lord for my healthy babies, and i knew we would be home soon, and we don't have to juggle life everyday with sick children in the hospital. our time was temporary. i'm just beyond thankful and grateful.
two days after we were home isaiah said to me "mom, if i get really sick,will you take me to the hospital too?" i said, "of course i will."